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I am sick and tired of people thinking that they know everything when it comes to cutting yourself. im pretty sure that everyone knows what To Write Love On Her Arms Day is and if you dont i am gonna try my hardest to explain it to you. it is basically a day for people to write love on their arms to show awarness for cutting and self injury. i know that some of the people that are doing this actually used to cut themselves but what i hate is that mst people who are doing this dont understand what people are thinking when they are actully cutting themselves. okay most people think that cutters are doing it for attenion. if you are a cutter and you are doing it for attention trust me that is really lame and stupid because there are better and less painful ways to get freaking attention. i started cutting myself when i was about 12 and i really havent stop since. i stop for like a year but then i got depressed again and the last time that i actually made myself bleed was this last march. i am sick and tired of how the people who are doing this stupid event thing dont even know what it feels like to cut yourself on purpose. us cutters dont do it for attention. we do it because we are hurting inside and we need to let the pain out so it is like a stress reliever expect for it kinda hurts at first. i really hope that they only reason you do this event thing is because you use to be a cutter because you dont know what it feels like to go through the pain of being depressed

There is no such thing as perfect

just like the title says there is no such thing as perfect. i needed that saying today. my day has been pretty horrible. first i wake up 17 minutes late so i had to hurry then i went to the atm to get money and my debit card decided not to work today and then i have to drive 35 minutes to school and then i go to math classes which was better than usual but then i have to go to dq so i can still use my debit card and i just didnt like doing that and then i get back wait ten minutes to walk to class and then i go to class in the pouring rain and i get to my class room and the class is canceled so i go home and while i get home i see a freaking turkey in mysubdivision. i know that it could be worse but what im trying to say is that everyone wants it to be perfect but there isno such thing as perfect. the only thing that is perfect is god. i had a wierd day but i will get through it because i have god and i also forget my grandpa went back into surgery to get a chest tube put in him because he keeps on getting fluids in his lungs so yea defiantly not the best of days but it could have been worse. i thank god for this day because at least i have money to get dq and at least i had an umbrella to walk through the pouring rain tell me about your day

Relationships

It is that time of year where everybody starts getting into a relationship and i mean everybody. if you arent already in a relationship by now then you will probalby get into one soon. this happens to every one except me. im not kidding all year long i never get into a relationship. i have no idea what is wrong with me i mean i think im kinda pretty and i know im chubby but i have seen chubbier people with relationships. i have no idea i have never been in a relationship i mean i have been offered but it is by guys that arent normal guys. they are mentally handicapped. i mean i dont want to date that. sometimes i feel like it might be that i am too picky but i know im not that picky and other times i think it might be cuz im kinda shy when you first get to know me but i mean im still pretty outgoing. i dont see why i cant get the guy of my dreams to come any pick me up and we will live happily ever after. i mean i am pretty confident for having a dad who say you are fat and you have weight problems all the time. yea my dad isnt the nicest. i just dont get it someone help me please

Women should be treated like god's daughters

i am so sick of hearing stories about girls that are getting raped or getting abducted in public places. women these days cant even go out of their house without being scared that someone could hurt them. if women werent around then the guys who hurt us so badly wouldnt be able to have kids or they would have to all turn gay. guys need to treat us women better. i dont like the fact that at night i have to walk with someone but when a guy walks alone no one bothers him. i hate that people have to walk with me to my car at night. guys also are breaking our hearts way too much. they also should open doors for us and come over when we are sick and also dont mix with our feelings. i hate rapers. i think that rapers should get life or the death penalty in jail because that girl could get pregnant and most likely she wil abort and so you got her pregnant and now she is killing a baby because of you. you are also probalby turning her off of men for awhile. my friend said the title to me one day and it really got me thinking.we should be treated like god's daughter. i dont care if you think that an elephant is your god or whatever. we need to be treated better in america. i mean iknow it is worse in like africa but they arent the best country in the world apperntly. so come on guys treat us better

Zero is not a size

just like the title says it isnt a size. zero is barely a number and well i am proud of the girls that are naturally that size but girls who starve themseleves and basically are killing themselves just to be that thin. i think that everygirl should be happy with the way they are. i mean everygirl is beatiful no matter what stupid guys or the media says. every size is just a number and numbers dont matter. it doesnt matter if you are a number 10 or a number 2 or a number 22 you are beatiful no matter what and you should be happy with yourself because god made you that way. now if you are being unhealthy like eating way too much then yes you should try to lose weight but if you are healthy and exercise . every girl is beatiful no matter what but those girls that cant walk because of their fatness should defiantly lose some weight but just because they should lose some weight doesnt mean that they arent beatiful.